My first time..
So I feel really nervous and exposed, but am encouraged slightly. The butterflies in my tummy won't leave me alone and I almost feel like I'm doing something naughty. I followed all the tips and hints and words of advise and wisdom my friends had shared with me, and because I was so scared of stuffing up I even researched online so at the end of it my audience wouldn't be disappointed. I really did feel very nervous. I knew what I wanted to do and how I wanted it to happen but I figured it needs to be a two person thing and so I got really scared because I thought what if the other half of the equation is less than impressed? What if they have seen better or want better or change their mind half way through. What if I'm not soft enough or rough enough? What if I think what they like is not what they like? But all the things I had hyped myself up on, all the silly little ideas I had some how gotten into my head started to fade and in the end when I finally did do it